It's 6 months today since you passed away. They say grief is the pain you suffer for loving - well I must have loved you so very greatly John because the pain is much worse than anyone could ever imagine and I am brokenhearted! Sorrow and sadness have taken over my body and mind. Life without you is so empty and lonely and I miss you so very much. Everyone says I'm doing well but they don't see me when I'm on my own! I have been going to night school for Journal Writing and today I made the decision to start writing my journal and will call it MY NEW LIFE and it will be dedicated to your memory. A lot of you and our old life will feature in it because I am the person I am today because of you, the wonderful family we created and the lovely life we shared. Comparisons will have to be made to my old and new life. I don't want this new life but know I can't have my old life back with you. I have to look forward and thank you so much for the beautiful memories I have of the wonderful years we had together.