Well it's holiday time tomorrow and I'm going to a villa in Portugal with 3 of my widow friends for 10 days. It will probably be better with 4 of us but I will still miss you my darling and it won't be the same. I just feel I need a break - I've only had one week holiday since you died and I didn't enjoy it much as the cruise ship was too big! However I can't keep on comparing my old life with you, can I? My new life is just about ok most of the time and I try to keep busy but I still feel alone. Will let you know how I get on when I get back. All my love xxxxxxxxxxxxxx