DECISIONS, DECISIONS, DECISIONS!!!! I'm choosing my new bathrooms, kitchens, wall and floor tiles and paint colours for the new bungalow and I so wish you were here to help me. We always made decisions together. WHY, WHY, WHY? Life is so unfair - I can't believe you're not here with me anymore - I feel ripped apart. I do feel better since I moved from our beautiful home - I used to keep looking for you - expecting you to be working in the garden, getting dinner ready, cleaning the pool or just sitting watching tv. I have reluctantly accepted that you are no longer with me and feel stronger now knowing you are guiding me all the time. Thank you for loving me and for all the many happy memories for me to treasure forever. Always in my heart and head day and night - love you forever. xxxxxxxxxxxx