Next Phase of My New Life. Well my darling John - today I have exchanged contracts on the property I am buying to live in and this is the next phase of my new life. Now the hard work begins and it will be a very, very sad day when I leave OUR beautiful home - but it's just not the same without you and I'm struggling to maintain it. I ask myself over and over "Why, why did this have to happen to us?" I don't like being on my own and making decisions alone and I miss you so much - our love was so special. Forever in my heart and ALWAYS in my thoughts. Love you forever xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx