Well Dad, a party you would have been proud of was well and truly held on the 1st anniversary of your passing away! Mum, Graham and Martin had worked so hard beforehand to make sure everything was just right, the way you always did so well, and on the day the sun shone so brightly. It was so hard at times not to just hide in a corner and cry and pretend that you had not left us, but with so much going on it was a great distraction. Martin did the barbecue to perfection just like you always did, so you have taught him so well, and Graham kept the drinks constantly topped up, this unfortunately you also taught him too well! I miss you so much, but more than anything I miss your voice. I have so many pictures of you and so many memories to remind me of you, but what hurts the most is that I will never hear your voice again. It still felt so strange to look around at the party and not see you standing by Mum's side or hear you laughing with your friends. Mum looked lovely on Sunday in a lovely turquoise dress and despite you not being there she was so outwardly strong, when I am sure like all of us she was sad and hurting inside. People keeping telling me that with time it will get easier, but I am still waiting. Always in my heart, Louise xxxx