Well John - I've sold our beautiful home and I was so proud of you when showing people round - you worked so hard to maintain it. I have struggled to keep up your standards and we bought it thinking we would spend our retirement here forever! It doesn't mean the same now you're not here and I will be VERY sad to move but the time is right now. I lost the property I wanted to buy so am looking at others and you will come with me as you are in my heart and head all the time wherever I go. My life changed forever when you died and I don't want this new life but what can I do - I know I can't have my old life back with you! Life is so empty without you my darling - love and miss you SO much. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx